How does the money go so fast...

So we are out of money again. It seems like it evaporates so quickly. I have to reign in our spending, my spending. Even though the credit cards are gone, I forgot about paypal, and that all the information is stored there. So I spent a little... but in a grasp at redemption I also made a charitable donation. It doesn't right my wrongs but if I spent for others it is better than spending for myself, or at least that is what I tell myself.

So I am having a pity party today. I am feeling bad that I got myself into this situation. I feel bad that I feel powerless to fix it. I feel bad that my children may suffer for my irresponsible addiction.  I feel bad.....