The road to Hell is paved with credit cards....

So it has gotten worse instead of better, or maybe this is just the fallout from my binge but the bills are rolling in. Some how I forgot to schedule payments for two of the credit cards and just realized that they were both past due by 2-3 days. I am feeling very low...the emergency card is actually maxxed out and I didn't even realize it. I  need to cut off my access to paypal and amazon. Both have the credit information saved in them. So they are an easy temptation and computer spending doesn't really feel like spending actual money. It is even more removed from just using a credit card. I must stop....I need help....but I really don't know how to find it. It is a dark time right now...

How do I keep from shopping...

Not sure what to do. I miss my shopping..I love to bargain shop, as in hit all the thrift stores in the area. I almost never shop at regular stores. It is the thrill of the hunt, find the unexpected. It is a treasure hunt!  There is nothing more satisfying than finding something that costs tons of money at Goodwill for $3.99. It is the rush of getting something for almost nothing! Only there can I walk out of the store with a cart filled to the brim and have spent only $50. I know I need to stop, but I don't want to...I need my fix. I am a much nicer, calmer person after a bargain trip. What do I use to take it's place, or am I destined to always be on edge without it. I need to figure something out...